Ho ho ho

Jingle bells, Jingle bells, Jingle all the way..

Merry X'mas! Ho ho ho :)

Satu : I didn't make it to Birm. Flight was cancelled after spending 4 hours on the plane. Yup, sedihkan. Tapi nak buat macam mana. Weather tak mengizinkan. But but but, I managed to rebook on this 26th. Doa please? Hopefully tak delay or cancel okay.

Dua : I think the best way to spend my winter holiday ni adalah melekat di tepi heater sambil melayan drama, movie, series yang saya dah ketinggalan. hehe

Tiga : Suka okay :) Stay sampai tahun depan!

Empat : Happy Birthday Dekwan! Sila kerja rajen-rajen. Tiba tiba! haha

Lima : Nah, layannnnn.

Selamat tinggal Dublin,see you again next year.

Take a grip on myself back. Cause I don't like it when someone gives too much. Too much of anything ain't good. Cause you may tend to forget.

So, jom packing! Angkat beg and weehuuu ke UK ayuh! My winter break will be spent with my favourite people. :)

Thank you, snow!

Exam postponed next year woi!

haha

Tak tahu nak happy ke apa sekarang.

All I know is I don't need to study right now.

Yay!

Memandang exam dah tamat, maka it's time untuk kembali!

Bukak semua benda balek. hihi

p/s : Like x)

Kau jangan main-main dengan Anuar Zain.

Hardcore.

What a day

Too many things happened in a day.

The loss.

The not well-prepared exam.

The extreme tiredness.

The stranded in heavy snow.

The missing.

The none-of-my-business thingy.

The rumour of exam might be postponed. Last paper la dow!

Semak okay. phffft. I need someone to talk to. Geramnya. -_-"

The Song

:)

Losing is what we fear most.

I don't even want the thought of that possibilities which might happen enter my mind right now. Risau.

I know everything is already written, tapi atleast..? March come faster please. I need to be home.

p/s : Protect my loved ones, Ya Allah swt.

Confuse

Government is considering to stop sending students abroad for Medicine? At least for the next 5 years due to abundance of housemans nowadays. (apa yang orang cakaplah)

Personally, kind of malang to those who perform excellently and seriously very keen in pursuing their studies in Medicine. Pity you people. On the other hand, bagus so that orang buka fikiran buka mata there's alot out there, in this world, various kind of job offered. Bukan typical balik-balik nak jadi apa? Doc, engineer etc.

Fine la if you're really determine nak buat and sangat berminat. For me, frankly speaking I choose to do Medicine cause that's the only course that atleast I find it interesting to do. Tapi nampak tak how I made my choice? By taking the least. Atleast minat la jugak yang ni compare to other, tak berminat langsung.

Bukan like. Okay, I wanna do Medicine cause I hmmm I really fall into this field. Beza okay itu. Beza.

Sekarang aku rasa aku dah tahu nak jadi apa. Hmm. Agak-agak kalau aku nak join group Sepah ni diaorang kasi ke?

Aku rasa aku boleh pergi jauh kalau jadi artis.

Ouh btw, now tengah tengok part yang ni. So tak pilih yang mana paling lawak ke apa. Semua macam bangang je lawak dirg. Kalau ikut dari awal. Tahu flow, baru faham apa yang lawak dia. heh

p/s : Okay masa rasa macam berjalan lambat je bila buat Accounting. Takde la macam bila study subjects Meds. Haih. Bagi masa sebulan prepare pon tak cukup gak. Dah, exam at 12noon. Bye!

What is our purpose of life?

is to give.

Start giving. See the joy of giving.

:)

Dua Insan Bercinta

1 word

LIKE!

Never give up

I wish later, I'll never say I regret of whatever I've chose to do in my life. Taking the path I am in now, everything. I don't want to live in regrets.

Ya Allah swt.

Whenever I feel I'm incapable, give me strength. So I won't look back and say, what if I choose not to? Take me away from all the negativity.

Amin.

p/s : Bila tengah mode exam, when you're at weakest point and start questioning whythehell you pick this course over others, never read new housemans punya status/blog/comments. lol

Finally.

She's here.

with the tour guide. haha

Okay, dah dah. Jangan lama-lama sangat melagha. Exam!

hehe

to be continued...

awaited arrival

I cannot wait!

Tapi nervous boleh? =_= Takutlah if dia tak lepas Imigresen London. Cuak after Peah told me ada member sorang member dia ni tak lepas nak masuk London and kena sent back the next day tu terus. Cuak ku okay.

Everything macam okay but expect worst case scenario lah kan. Aiceh. heh. Mana tau takde luck tak lepas. Ya Allah, mintak-mintaklah okay je semua.

Seriously, excited and rasa nak melompat-lompat! :) Okay, trip well-planned. Tickets semua da beli. Tinggal nak langkah kaki je. So snow, please be kind to us k. Turunlah ikut time yang sesuai. Jangan time-time kami ada flight or bus travel ke apa.

Okay, sambung study! :)

p/s : Bosankan bila orang tanya buat apa and my answer is always studying. TT Yep that boring. So jangan buat medic! HAHA. coi!

Begging you

Hari tu nak cari lagu ni but lupa. Aaaa. :D Sukalah okay cerita tu. Seriously I did come across this song masa dalam bus and all of sudden terus teringat tapi tak cari. HAHA.

Repeat jom!

Eyh okay okay focus! Supervisor garang! la la la

Study study. hehe

hi mata sexy.

Since FB ditutup buat sementara waktu untuk mengelakkan segala masalah masalah mengejar saya buat masa sekarang. (Note : Aku takde masa nak layan cite sampah macam tu eyh.Suka hati korang but jangan libatkan aku. Wek)

Makanya saya akan bercakap sorang sorang kat sini tanpa sebarang gangguan. Tenang hokey takde FB. Serious. :)

Ouh bersempena nak exam, I bought this revitalising eye roll on. Ni untuk mengelakkan puffy eye. Yang confirm akan dapat especially exam week macam ni. Tidur tak menentu. So to prevent it gunalah ini! hehe

I think students memang tak boleh nak elak dah eye bag ni. Berkati kati. And super ugly okay. Nak nak kalau muka dah macam tak siap ni, ditambah dengan eye bag. Sian kan? isk

Okay sambung alcolic liver disease. Bye!

Ada kena mengena? Takde. Sebab aku saket tekak sekarang. Eyh eyh? +_+

(Big Bang) Haru Haru 하루하루 - Sungha Jung

Hi jejaka idaman.

hilang

Ada dua sebab kenapa orang selalu hilang.

First, hilang but deep down inside suka bila hilang is noticeable and orang tetap cari though you're invisible or what.

Second, hilang and seriously she doesn't want you to find her. It means NO.

So get it?

You, you are the first one. And you? Second.

p/s : Need time to get myself back.

Geng Sweet Escape

A tribute to Fakap

Hi Si Fakap,

Your words are like the best antidote for a fucked up. So keep on writing. Sebab gua rasa macam terbang. Hilang semua dalam kepala otak ni.

Hehe.

Pinjam kata-kata kau okay?

p/s : Whatever whatever.

sweet escape

shut up

There's always a different feeling when you're pouring your problems or whatever shit that happens to guy and girlfriend.

Isk, saket jiwa.

The best thing is keep it to yourself.

the unbearable

I sleep and wish when I wake up, all is gone. That's how I roll when thing goes beyond control. But not this time. I woke up and still messed up.

Great Man of All Years.

Movie sepanjang zaman adalah semua movie by Arwah P. Ramlee. Epic okay! The punch lines. Ish, bayangkan after 2 3 decades, people still can remember the punch lines. Even budak yang tak hidup sezaman dengan P.Ramlee pon boleh ingat.

Gempak ouh.

Dah, sebelum ke lecture. Layan P.Ramlee sepam. Seniman Bujang Lapuk.

p/s : Measure the action taken rather than the words spoken. :)

Oslo ke Dublin?

Hello White November.

Lately kan Dublin isn't acting as how Dublin always is. Cuaca tak menentu. Macam jiwa saya jugak. ( eyh perlu ke? ) Tak perlu kot. I know I know. Abaikan the latter one. Ha. Kadang confuse. Bila bangun pagi dialog-dialog pelik mula keluar. Dalam hati je lah tapi.

Aku kat Oslo ke Dublin ni? Why Oslo why?

Sebab tu the only tempat yang dah pernah jejak sejuk dia tahap hmm kau rasa nak bawak portable heater sepanjang masa kau berjalan jalan. Entah macam mana boleh ada brilliant idea untuk melawat Oslo time winter entah.

Oslo-Winter. Sheesh, berharap tidak akan melakukan perkara yang separa bodoh seperti itu lagi.

Nah beberapa aksi yang sempat dirakam untuk kenang-kenangan. Dah kata last winter kat sini. Okay lari belakang pintu sekarangggg. Now lah baru ada rasa-rasa erk sedih la pulakkan tinggalkan Dublin.

Sob sob sob.

Cuba teka kenapa rajin sangat study dekat busstop? Sebab bus macam haremmm. Yela yela. Snow kan. Dimaafkanlah. Ni sebab kami masuk lecture yang tinggal lagi 20mins je tu ok. =.=

Bila tahu lecture endocrine cancel, kami pon bergegas pulang. Sebab dah bersiap sedia dengan camera before keluar rumah tadi. Dah plan da nak buat sesi photography sikit.

Snow fight began!

I can do this!

Exam dihujung penjuru weh. Dem!

Tangan kebas lepas main snow fight. Cynosis tangan gua okay. Dah tu lagi mau kepit tangan tu asal? Gerak-gerakkan jari rakan rakan.

Dah, tamat.

p/s : Keep silent. That's how I roll when you know..

A story of a no-longer-lonely-man.

Photo taken yesterday. Mr. Snowman was a lonely man. He's freezing outside waiting for someone he missed so much.

And today's morning, snow is a little bit heavier than yesterday. But you know what, he's enjoying it much cause...

Mrs. Snowman already back! hehe. Though she kinda looks different than 3 years before. hmm. Bigger, but never mind. Mr. Snowman still loves you. :)

And they live happily ever after.

the end

p/s : The last autumn-going-winter in Dublin. Sad huh? :(

pray hard

I almost cried when you said that. Thank God, I could hold my tears from running down. You know what, I heart you too. :(

Jom lari. Lari sampai penat. Jerit sampai puas. We'll find a perfect place, someday.

*hugs*

morning!

Sedihnya. Semua bloglist hilang lagi. =_=

But sokay. Macam gembira je nak blogging pakai font ni. hehe.

Maka akan ada 10 entries dalam masa satu hari. Yay!

p/s : Dublin is getting weirder. Lightning and snowing. Pelik!

friday night

Smile.

Faham?

Ouh why all I can see is just your moustache instead of your smile? Whatever man, whatever. Sigh.

Eat Pray Love

You may breakdown once in a while. Mourning how disaster your life is. How much pain you have for having hurt by the things around you ; Fail to achieve what you want. Even worse having the thought of giving up cause you think it's getting tougher and you may not capable enough to get through it.

You know what. That is fine.

You're doing good actually.

You cry, but you have shoulders you can lean on to. You mourn, then you notice you've people who care to ask. You screw your life up, you're learning at the same time. You fail, you get up and become stronger.

Whatever bad that comes, you can mourn but never for too long.

Even saying this. I am still not alright but like I say. This is just fine. I am still breathing though I am hurt right? I am dealing with this.

Praying for the serenity, Amin.

edited

Belajar untuk kecewa, belajar mengecewakan, belajar menghadapi kekecewaan diri sendiri dan dikecewakan adalah empat benda yang berbeza.

Harap kau dapat bezakan.

Dalam hidup, keempat-empat ini akan kau lalui (walaupun selalunya, tak mengikut urutan pun), namun, bagaimana kau menghadapinya akan sedikit sebanyak mematangkan kau dalam merempuh pahit manis hidup. It makes you a better person. Builds character.

Aku harap, walau apa pun: kau akan tabah menghadapinya.

- by Si Fakap.

sorga atau neraka

Old school gila.

clap clap clap

stay

It feels better when you're in a mess but you know you've someone who cares to ask and lighten the burden.

p/s : Afraid, but past is past right. Go go go! Fighting!

Life, be kind to me please?

Tenanglah hati, tenanglah jiwa

As I expected. Screwed up again miserably. This is too much to handle. Fail is never an option offered.

Stressnya.

p/s : Thank you, you. Alot. Enough for I know you're always there. But life still being mean to me. :(

[?]

the end

Masa cepat berlalu. See, we're now in our 3rd year. Nearly to end our pre-clinical stages.

I'm afraid. Too afraid.

hmm

usah lepaskan

1 step ahead.

Actually I don't have the mood to update my blog. But I feel obliged to do so due to the 5 Things 30 Day Challenge I promised to get it done within a month. haha. Berlagak je nak abeskan in 30 hours kan. Pastu malas dah. Haih.

Hmm, actually nak mengadu pasal kecuakkan setelah mendapat email dari coordinator. Clinical group has been given. And I am in P5. Tengok groupmate sume okay okay. Insyallah semua okay kot. The timetable also already out. Hospital dekat St. Vincent and Mater.

I read through the file they attached together. What we need to be prepared of, the hospital etiquette and so on. Seriously, my hands were getting cold as I read through it. Even colder than my room temperature. (ok tipu.sekarang makin sejuk.TT.isk)

Here goes the things that considered as Hospital Etiquette.

We are advised not to wear perfume. Jangan kecewa sebab tak boleh pakai perfume eyh. Seeing from the bright side of it. Jimat perfume!

And not to wear stethoscope around the neck. sheesh. Isn't that what we always see doctors are around with? tak cool la camni. HAHA.

Always wear white coat. Dem. Tak suka sangat my white coat now. Sleeve dia too short. I mean really short. Hmm. I get another one when I start my clinical at Penang lah.

To carry in the white coat pocket - pen, notebook, Oxford Handbook of Clinical Med, Surgical Recall and bla bla bla. Banyak pulak they listed down. Pocket macam kecik okay. Lain lah kalau pocket Doraemon. Macam macam boleh isi.

Haih

okay, malas pulak nak jawab dah.

Day 1

5 favourite actresses :

1. Abby Abadi - For now,it's her on top of my mind sebab tengah layan cerita dia kat TV9. Ouh sila tengok cerita itu sebab ada jejaka yang sangat comel. HAHA. Serious okay. Melted. Ouch!

2. Fazura - hmm, entah. Not really big fan of her but ni juga popped out right after Abby. She's cantek and ada aura. Like.

3. Sazzy Falak - okay dia pon cantek juga. roar!

4. Kristen Kreuk - malas nak ulang 10x. You know why.

5. Liyana Jasmay - hmm rasa dia ni macam mengada ngada sikit tapi eh comel. haha

Susah gila nak perah otak pikir actresses ni. Cuba kalau bagi actors. Laju je jawab okayyy. Ni macam suka pon takde la suka sangat kot. Suam suam kuku je. Heh.

Okay sambung cite Fugitive. Best ouh. Mari lah tengok!

5 Things 30 Day Challenge

I should get all these completed 1 by 1 from day 1 to day 30. Hmm, but since I am bored like hell, (midterm's over!) can I just get all these done within 30 hours? Or 30 mins maybe. Bosan gila okay. It is not that I've nothing to do, I got elective class to attend, finals that coming up in less than 4 weeks (nerd gila baru abes midterm nak pikir final sudah. HAHA. Okay cause I know I did terrible in my midterm.Zzzz), tapi takde mood. So I skipped my accounting class today! Sep sep.

Well, harus lah celebrate exam dah habis kan.

Partayy baby partayy.

Okay tipu. All I did since yesterday were lying on my bed and looked straight at the ceiling. Hoping that I could shut my eyes and in a split second I'll be in a dreamland. But, no. That's not happening. The eye refusea to shut, and I am awake since last 2am. -_-"

Ouh anyway did I tell you, lately I got too much of appetite. Gila okay. I ate almost more than 3 times in a day. Nasi okay nasi. Urghhh. Membimbangkan membimbangkan. What if I gemuk and seluar tak muat? What if muka bulat tahap anak ayam pon tak bulat macam ni. Ishh scaryyy. Okay dah. Bebelan biasa kaum wanita.

Hmm,nak layan Fugitive lah. Housemates tengah layan cerita ni. Supaya tidak ketinggalan ketika sesi berjalan ke bus stop or sesi having meal together, I should watch it too. Terpaksa ni terpaksa. Tak suka sebenarnya membazir masa melagha ni.

Serious.

p/s : Good good good good luck! :)

she has found hers. :)

Endocrine exam at 18:00, and it's gonna be the last paper. Say yay yay! :D And goodluck to those who begin yours today, I'll end mine. hehe.

In a complete different story,

I am still overwhelmed by the great news I heard yesterday. Homaigod giler okay. My friend's getting married! Yes, she is. For real! The first babe, the first among us. The first in the batch. But the worst thing is I cannot attend the ceremony. It'll be held during my winter holiday.Sedih gila. Do you feel me?

I'm gonna miss it. Sedih 197x. :( Hmm, whatever pon congrats my dear. Congrats, you finally found your life partner. Even I do not know him, I know he must be someone great and so damn lucky to have you. :)

p/s : Selalu curik songs posted on facebook. Naseb baek they dun read mine. haha

back to a decade ago.

Abby Abadi cantek. Saya suka. Ouh the unknown guy juga sangat menerujakan. Haha. Aiyo, so cute la. Roar roar sungguh. haha. Sweet gila okay mereka. Im not talking bout Abby's real life. Ada 1 cerita ni. Pelik jugaklah jalan cerita dia. hmm.

Lagu atas ni gila takde kena mengena dengan cerita saya tengok tu. hehe

Okay, harus sambung perjuangan. Gila banyak mati okay nak kena study. I cannot say I give up. Kan? ;)

p/s : Helllo! cepatlah. ;(

tolong ingatkan aku

this is a rough journey, but I gotta suck it up.

Okay this is a big worry.Seriously. I could sense the below 3 for this sem? Eff! Haema sucks! And Respi? 10 times suck-ier!

Gotta study gotta study. I don't plan to fail and repeat any subject for this sem. But if I do, yeah please know En. Mara, seriously I don't intend to. Okay?

Hmm,somehow, this always came across my mind lately. Me own a nursery and 60% of my time is at home. hehe

p/s : Hopefully everything goes well for all of us. I want to see you with the scroll in your hand and you wearing the jubah. Nanti baling baling topi k? hehe

pre-exam syndrome

Aaaaa, you know how it feels? hehe. :) :) :) Besok saya ada exam. Wish me luck.

p/s : Can never be happier than this. :)

hey u!

:)

Hi, I Dyla and I hate Dota.

Maaflah kepada pecinta pecinta Dota di luar sana. I tak suka Dota. :( Aiyooo. Wahai adek ku, anda da nak SPM okayy. Sempat lagi maen Dota? grrr. Jangan bagi kakakmu yang baek ni risau bole? eyh tiba tiba baek. haha. hmmm.

DOTA! Now I officially hate you, muchhh.

Si budak nak SPM

Good Night

hi love!

Let's wear pink today! Tapi hari ni tudung saya sucks! ayoyo. Bulat gila ouh. Tak dapat dibantulah okay kalau muka awak memang dah bulat. haha. Okay ada class in 39mins from now.

p/s : Too happy is kinda weird kan? Orang cakap tak elok gelak banyak banyak. Nanti menanges. Kan? aaaa. Takut sekarang sebab gelak banyak sangat lately. hehe.

heard it on the radio

Every time I hear it play
I think of you and those summer days
Oh, I can still remember
When I heard it on the radio
Oh, but now we are September
Come on, forget what we know

all or nothing

Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town

Let's sing together!

I got some troubles but they won't last
I'm gonna lay right down here in the grass
And pretty soon all my troubles will pass
'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo
Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town

I never had a dog that liked me some
Never had a friend or wanted one
So I just lay back and laugh at the sun
'cause I'm in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo
Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town

Yesterday it rained in Tennessee
I heard it also rained in Tallahassee
But not a drop fell on little old me
'cause I was in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo
Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town

If I had a million dollars or ten
I'd give to ya, world, and then
You'd go away and let me spend
My life in shoo-shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo-shoo
Shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo, shoo-shoo Sugar Town
la-la-la-la to end

Are you man enough to say it?

p/s : nothing related with the poster above.

I love like you, man.

Kerana akalmu panjang. Bahasamu penuh fikiran.

I woke up and suddenly missing you Mum.

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive.
Love sings,
When it transcends the bad things.
Have a heart and try me,
'cause without love I won't survive.

Be it in any forms. A lover to a mother, a man, a friend, home etc. Why this 4 so random? errr. Losing family member is like the most thing I afraid of to happen. Hmm it feels like the world has come to an end. Heart stops pounding. Barely breathe. Even when the thought of it strikes your mind, you're like battling to deny it. Everybody loves their mom, I know for sure. I am like anak emak. Mana mana nak pergi nak ada mak jugak. heh.

You know, every time my mum's out. Im so afraid if anything happens to her and she's not coming back. I always have this secret prayer. No I won't type it down here. Cause I am afraid. Okay let just not think about it. err.

Mak, I love you. I dream big. One day, when you're retired, and I already work. I want you to have all the best things exist in this world. No more pressure of working, no struggling to raise all 4 of your children. *I am not forgetting the major role in raising us until what we are today ;the great man in the family, my father*

I have a lot in my mind, what I want to buy for her. Where I want to bring her. Hmm I guess, I better keep it down low. Cause you know, usually the more we plan on something, the more unlikely it's gonna happen.

Eh malas lah nak tulis dah. The whole idea is, lagi sayang lagi vulnerable we are. Lagi sayang lagi hebat the fear of losing. Lagi sayang lagi sensitive your heart is.

It hurts you alot, so that you know you love them tenfold greater.

favourite people

let's do this forever okay?

love them to bits!

imy

Hello,

I miss her!

22 october yaw

Do I look like I got plenty of free time? No.

Bila stress nak exam makanya menjadi begini.Tiba tiba datang idea nak buat mosaic picture banyak banyak kat atas ni, tapi tak cukup masa. Buat atas ni pon da makan masa sejam okay. Dah la malas nak save gambar dari fb. So amek je apa ada dalam laptop ni, penat try nak buat size macam atas ni. Okay da taw da guna size apa. 1000x300.

Yay!

Better picture will soon replace atas ni. Atas ni sucks!

Bye! exam exam.

damn,this is peer pressure.

Nak Bold please? Ke Iphone? Ke X8?

Thank you so much.

blackmail

Let's just not talk about it okay? hehe.

Hi Mr/Mrs. Lecturer,

What if I couldn't finish the tutorial? Don't be too hard on me tomorrow k? I mean, just do not ask me any question. Ask my other groupmates instead.

with love,

your student.

zzzz

Saya seorang budak yang rajen belajar. Sila percaya. Saya tidak suka berfoya foya dengan fb twitter etc.

kelihatan seperti seekor ikan kembung tidak?

to emphasize : saya budak rajen belajar, saya budak rajen belajar. Saya suka akan pembelajaran. ouh hari hari saya belajar.

zzzz

Don't you think so?

So they just talked about everything that lies under the sun. From chocolate to cigarettes. From sun to star. From workload to bigger dream.

Aren't we just too young to fail?

xx